It's been over a month now since my last post. My lack of tending to this blog is in part because we have been, and currently are, in Wisconsin with family at the moment. A bigger reason however would probably be because, simply put, I'm just not feelin' it anymore. I started this in January of 2008 and somewhere along the line it started to get less and less personal. Fluff posts. Nothing of importance. Then I started to see that anytime I would post something of (in my mind) a bit of importance, I would get backlash for it. An upset e-mail, somebody or another reading too much into things. I couldn't speak freely. More friends and family became aware of my little space here (whether you were a commenter or not, I have sitemeter, I see your visits) and while that's not necessarily a bad thing, it started to really make me feel like I had to censor myself. And that got frustrating. So for awhile I wasn't quite sure where to go from there. I knew that I wanted to keep writing and posting. I wanted to have a way to let my thoughts get out of my own head. And lately, there's a lot going on in there and a lot that I want to be able to get out somewhere. I didn't create this blog for other people, I did it for myself. I've never wanted or even considered making this blog private. I can't stand it when people do that. So instead of making the blog private, I have decided to carry on elsewhere, anonymously. Maybe I'll be back here from time to time, maybe not. I'll leave things for the time being with this lovely song by Dave Matthews Band.
Fall back again, fall back again,
Fall back again, fall back again
Oh, life it seems a struggle between
What we think what we see
I'm not going to change my ways
Just to please you or appease you
Inside a crowd, five billion proud
Willing to punch it out
Right, wrong, weak, strong
Ashes to ashes all fall down
Look around about this round
About this merry-go-round around
If at all God's gaze upon us fall
His mischievous grin, look at him
Forget about the reasons and
The treasons we are seeking
Forget about the notion that
Our emotions can be swept away
Forget about being guilty,
We are innocent instead
For soon we will all find our lives swept away
Sit awhile with TV's hungry child
Big belly swelled
Oh, for a price of a coke or a smoke
Keep alive those hungy eyes
Take a look at me, what you see in me,
Mirror look at me
Face it all, face it all again
Forget about the reasons and
The treasons we are seeking
Forget about the notion that your emotions can be
Wept away, kept at bay
Forget about being guilty, i am innocent instead
For soon we will all find our lives swept away
You seek up an emotion
And our cup is overflowing
You seek up an emotion,
Sometimes your well is dry
You seek up a big monster
For him to fight your wars for you
But when he finds his way to you, the devil's not
Going--ha, ha
Say, say
Look at me in my fancy car
And my bank account
Oh, how I wish I could take it all down
Into my grave, I'd save
Take a look again, take a look again,
Take a look again
Everyday things change,...stay the same
Forget about the reasons and
The treasons we are seeking
Forget about the notion that
Your emotions can be swept away
Intentions are not wicked,
Don't be tricked into thinking so
Soon we will all find our lives swept away
You seek up an emotion
And our cup is overflowing
You seek up an emotion,
Sometimes your well is dry
You seek up a big monster
For him to fight your wars for you
But when he finds his way to you,
The devil's not going--ha, ha
Fall back again, fall back again, fall back again...
no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love your posts! i'm sad. I even like posts that I don't agree with!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! Why can't you say what you want?? was someone mean to you??
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